It’s 2 p.m. This morning’s meditation was a practice in fidgets and worry. Breakfast and lunch were thrown together and the dishes are in the sink. I haven’t been outside. I feel scattered and unfocused. I didn’t write what I want to write. What have I done instead? 1. I wrote down last night’s dream […]

I should have known sorrow would flood my heart. I should have known grief would grab my belly and soak my face. I should have known I’d search the crowd for my dead husband’s smile. I should have known the power of our collective grief. I grieve when the desperate are turned away. I grieve when the hungry […]

Women, girls, kids, and men in pink hats and scarves jammed the Washington Metro subway. A joyful and determined pink mob pressed together and helped each other find a place to stand or sit. Each stop added more marchers, more posters, more pink hats and scarves, more excitement. The day before the Women’s March on […]

When the overnight aide arrived at 10 pm, Virginia wasn’t asleep in her bed. She wasn’t in her apartment or down the hall in the sitting area or anywhere obvious. After a frantic search, the aide found my mother-in-law sitting on a cement floor at the top of a stairwell, lost, shivering, and weeping. Virginia’s little […]

A dear friend wrote me a letter after she read my last blog. Along with her usual wise reflections, she said, “…yesterday’s blog is so lonely–for Vic, for your brother–and filled with the stress of your Mother-in-law’s care and your own Meniere’s Disease. How that presses upon you!” “Presses upon…” The image of being pressed upon […]

…there comes a time when, long after loss has been well-lived…, a small melody of love always returns.”  Dreamwork with Toko-Pa  For the seventh year, I gathered candles and evergreens for a Solstice Ritual. My son, daughter-in-law, and I built an altar and shared what we hoped to release and create for 2017. We lit […]